March Thoughts

First, a little bit of context. I have not had sex for 2 years and 8 months.

I’ve just had one of the best weeks of my life. Why’s that, you may ask?

1. I had sex! Not the only reason, but it helped. It’s helped clear out some cobwebs and of course, release endorphins. The biggest transformation on this point was my ability, to be honest with her. We both mutually agreed that we didn’t want a relationship before having sex. We then hooked up a few times over a week. I felt that we weren’t quite right for each other, so I ended it.

The big difference is that back in my drunken days, I would not have had the power to end it. I struggled with communicating how I felt, worried I might upset their feelings, more so I was out of touch with what I actually wanted! This time I was perfectly honest and we drew things to an amicable end.

2. I did my first 1:1 life drawing with a woman I organised to come and visit. She was perfectly professional and interesting — and beautiful. It was a great 2.5 hours of forced drawing and creativity. I couldn’t dispute whether I was in the mood for it, I just had to go for it.

3. The heavens delivered the answer to my ‘Indeed’ job advert for marketing assistance.

4. I “worked” harder than I’ve ever done to meet a self-imposed deadline for creating images and copy for new prints on my website. When I wasn’t with my son, eating or exercising, I worked from 6 am until almost midnight every day for the last 7 days. It was friggin’ awesome.

5. I did 3 yoga classes and 3 weight sessions.

6. An image came to me this morning, during yoga, which I turned into a cartoon. It was an image of someone in bed sleeping, but when you zoom out the bed is a grave. It says “don’t spend your life worrying about death, it will ruin your life. L.I.P — Live in Peace”.

7. I created a digital piece of art to promote a friend’s new business @emmalondon. I made it on ‘procreate’ and learned loads of new digital art skills and screen recording.

8. I spent a lot of quality time with my 3-year-old son. He rode his bike without stabilators and unassisted for the first time, it was incredible to share that milestone together. We also went to the driving range to hit some golf balls together.

9. I’ve had a lot of social interactions with friends and colleagues.

So back to my first point, why was it nearly 3 years without sex and why did I decide to break the celibacy?

Tune in next time and I’ll tell you about it.